I hate how tumblr is my last resort to express myself these days. it used to be twitter but people who I see and deal with daily now follow me which makes it harder to express and let out when I’m having a shity day. The people who know me personally would probably be shocked to see how down and stuff I get, as I’m normally happy, laughing and loving life but that’s me on a high so when I crash, I crash hard. That’s when I need someone to cheer me up instead of me spending my time helping others even though that does help me by making me forget and hide my own demons. I hate feeling like this because I know no one tries to help me get out of it probably because they don’t know or they don’t care. I’m very sorry for all this moaning lately just have no where else to direct it at the moment. its just one bad thing after another right now and I feel snowed in with no route out. Again sorry, matth.